Dick No More

Yeah okay, this is clickbait. But you’re here now, so might as well go along for the ride. And tonight’s ride is about aging. As I was meditating today, I thought how getting older has softened me. I have always been kind of a laid back dude. But as I have gotten older, I am super chill. You would be hard pressed to find anyone that knows me, that would say differently. But in today’s meditation, I focused on giving it up. You know, the “win”. And that led me to recall as a young man all the times when I had to be right, have it my way, or simply needed it to be about me. Now? I don’t give a fuck.

I have been blessed with such an amazing life. Seen and done things that most will never get to experience. But as a younger man, I recognize that I didn’t always act with respect. That I could have done better. And for a short time in my life {as a very young man}, I was lost and on a very destructive path. Am I beating myself up about it? Not at all, despite hurting a lot of people. Because I was young. And many times when we are young, we are kind of a dick. And getting older, we start to realize what is important. And that came up for me today in meditation. That I am a dick no more.

You know my job for nearly 4 decades working in mental health was reading people. I turned it off, or ignored it many times as a young man. As an older man, awareness is so essential. Why? Because time is limited. I want what time that is left, to be meaningful. Not wasted on any other thing but peace, love, and equality. And many times when I see people walking into a dark scenario, I say nothing. My job is to fight, only when I see eminent danger. I don’t need to stroke my ego, nor do I want to impede someone’s learning process.

Getting older the need to fight, argue, win, be right, and all that other nonsense falls by the wayside. Am I scared? Hardly. Have I given up? Not even close. Does that make me a little bitch? If wanting peace makes me a bitch… then I’m a bitch all day long.

All I am saying is, put down your swords. Not everything needs a response or reaction. And all that ego stuff…yeah, that’s just being a dick. And I refuse to be a dick no more.